Monday, December 27, 2010

I don't feel like being eloquent.

I completely lost control and ran around the kitchen freaking about the food and counting the calories and how much I ate and freaked out.
It wasn't even that much. 860. That's a decent amount for me.
I then proceeded to try to feel better, give up on that, make excuses, and cut.
[14. 860=8+6=14]

Ugh.

I am so unimpressed with myself.

I'm sorry.

2 comments:

  1. Hey Beautiful.

    I wrote a very long comment and google said it was too long...

    So - I posted it elsewhere where you might find it.

    In case you don't see it - here's a link to a site you might find helpful on your journey.

    http://www.dharmaseed.org/

    I loved Tara Brach. Have read her book "Radical Acceptance". I downloaded one of her talks this morning and listened. My favorite teacher is Jack Kornfield (my first and best). I've been to a silent retreat with Howard Cohn. And I've read Phillip Moffet's "Dancing With Life" book.

    I hope you find some nuggets of wisdom you can use for yourself.

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