I shouldn't eat today.
There's no reasoning for this. No OMGINEEDTOLOSEWEIGHT or OMGATETOOMUCHMUSTMAKEUPFORIT. No more so than usual, anyways.
I just feel like I shouldn't. Like it's my 'thing' for the day. Like today, I'm simply meant to starve.
I know I should eat. [One day won't hurt me]. Food won't kill me. [I know that [I think] but I just don't want to.] The food looks good [Not that good]. I'll end up bingeing later. [No I won't, I can control this.]
I dunno. food? fooooooooood?
food.
empty?
I tried doing that over my 3 day sabbatical. I was only successful on one day. My goal was to eat breakfast only and then drink water/coffee the rest of the day. I finally did it on the 3rd day. Haven't been able to do it again tho...
ReplyDeleteI saw myself reaching for food again and again all based on emotional reactions. At least it showed me how emotions drive my response to eat food. Not hunger. No - not hunger. sigh...
I strive to have compassion for that part of me that's been taught to eat when emotional.
I drank water with apple cider vinegar every time I reached for food on that third day. Turns out the more coffee I drank the more food I wanted to eat.
Can you write it down on something each time you think about food? I know it's a pain to write - but at least it will be a pause.
Oh - and maybe you could eat a little something to keep your brain working? Some protein?
Just a thought.
I wish you some peace today. HUG
Yeah, I've definitely noticed that I eat [or not eat] based off emotions and not necessarily hunger. I've been working out why I decided to not eat for two days [I ate saturday morning, and then not until sunday night where I ate 1/3 of an apple [panic attack included]]. I'm eating fine this morning, so I think that 'thing' is over for now.
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