I've been thinking about just how WEIRD my life is. Not necessarily in what happens, because really, I'm a boring person. But what's in my head. How reality seems to me, how I think, what my thoughts are, how and what I feel, etc. It's weird. I'm fairly sure it's not normal. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be in someone's head. I mean, I get a pretty good feel for people just by 'reading' them but to actually be INSIDE there and think everything as they do? That'd be...interesting.
I had a scary thought today. I couldn't remember when I first started getting depressed. Or when I realised what it was. I can remember being happy and having my brain be more...simple. But I don't remember when that was. Perhaps it's just because my sense of time is so fucked, but it's....scary. It feels like I've lived two lives, one being when I was younger and happy, the other being the past year or two. Everything inbetween that blurs together.
I really can't put any words to it other than 'Weird'. That about sums it up.
Breakfast: GUESS WHAT. bagel.
Lunch: Banana
Dinner:
Other: Juice, banana, handful of honey nuts, medium tim horton's hot chocolate.
Exercise: Some walking
Harm [day 6]: None
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