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Had an awesome few days with Sandi. I loved sneaking out at 2 am to walk to the park... in 17-inch-deep snow... to swing. That was amazing. My favourite things [with one exception]: snow, the nighttime, swings. All in one place, at one time.

On another note though, my eating has been shit recently. I'm starting to get into stupid cycles.

Also, I'm a fucking IDIOT.

"From: [Name removed]
To: [Me]
CC:
Subject: this course
Sent: Thursday, February 24, 2011
hi [Me];
You have been registered in this course since November and have yet to reach active status. Please contact me be Wed, Mar 2 to discuss your options. If I do not hear from you by then, you will be automatically withdrawn from the course.
[Name removed]"
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"Hello [Me] I need you to complete and/or hand in your module 1. If you do not do this soon I will have to drop you from the course to make room for other students. If you plan on continuing in this course please get back to me and hand in module 1. Once you have handed in the first module I will give you the next two. Once you have finished all three you only have to complete your activity log and hand it in and you will be complete. Please respond to this email.

Thanks

[Name removed]"

Fucking whiney stupid lazy bitch.

You had all the time in the world to do the work. And reasons to do it. And no real demands other than you do this very basic work. And absolutely no excuses not to. AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN START IT! What the fuck is wrong with you?! You're just a huge disappointment and a failure. So stupid that you don't even try. And you sit here and whine about it, like it isn't all your own fault. "oh woe is me, the world is so tough because i'm too lazy to try" SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU WHINEY LITTLE BITCH. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU. you didn't even START. And instead of starting the work, you're just sitting here whining about it. that's all you ever do. "oh woe is me, i cut myself." "oh i'm so fat but i'm gonna sit here and continue to pig out" SHUT UP.
Your mom is going to be so disappointed with you. All she wants is for you to do what you failed at last year. And you can't even do that because you're a fucking lazy idiot. You can hear her frustration and disappointment in your head already, can't you? And it's deserved. She should kick you out, you never do anything. You're lucky she's as nice as she is. And yet you continue to fail her.
I am so disgusted by you.

Breakfast: two pieces of toast w/butter and peanut butter.
Lunch: salad, smoothie.
Dinner: spaghetti
Other: juice, hot chocolate.
Exercise: walking through snow
Harm: None.